what’s going on?
i swear i keep reblogging things i don’t remember reblogging. & my life is a mess. everyday i’m breathing a little more, everyday i’m creeping out of my shell just a little, everyday i’m getting better.
honestly to think of it, i’ve been a mess because i made myself a mess. if i immerse myself among people, i have no choice but to be happy and free. but no, i chose to cage myself up and cry at home alone.
i walk everywhere now. it’s great. i love the weather. i love the fresh air. i love… i basically love everything. when night falls it’s a different matter, but that’s because i put myself in this situation.
what have i done since i’ve been back? i went to kmart to buy stuff for the house. i bought beanbags and tons of stuffing, and lugged all 5 big bags of foam from innaloo back to the house. i stayed at home and decorated the house, making it more homely and lovely in time for the 2 idiots who will be back soon. i went to the beach a couple of times alone, just lying there on the sand with the music playing, and i played with the waves on my bodyboard. that was fun. i went out with lavon and jason to ikea and i bought my wardrobe and i spent the evening fixing it up. connect this to that, that to that, stick that into this hahaha (y). chilled the afternoon with bern nomming on fries and bad magic tricks.
well, those are the days. during the nights…
i miss eric. i miss ingrid. i miss navin. i miss everybody. i miss miss miss them. i’m staying away till i get better, then i won’t affect anyone, right?
